For the last few years I have been asking myself the same question. Why do I always feel like “the meat in the sandwich”?  My thinking is if I feel this way then no doubt millions of other women do as well.

Let me start by telling you a bit about myself. I am a fairly well adjusted 53 year old wife and mother of three twenty something aged children. I work full time and live in a small town on the edge of a larger city. I have been married for over two decades and my children still say they love me. I am considered by many to be intelligent, attractive and successful.

So what gives?  Why do I feel pressure from all sides? Why do I always have that nagging feeling that says I got it all wrong? Why do I feel like a failure? If you don’t know what I am talking about it’s the feeling you get when a comment or situation inevitably transforms into a thick ooze of guilt, splashed with insecurity and topped with dread that permeates your entire body and makes you feel like crying. Yup, that feeling.

From my parents (still alive, thank God) to my grown children (two still living at home). From my loving husband (still sexually active) to my thirty something boss (said he would have preferred to hire a 22 year old). These are the triggers and if you add in the fact that my mind, body and soul are conspiring daily to defeat me by sagging, wrinkling, tiring, forgetting and sweating (yuck) is it any wonder that I ask….why do I feel like “the meat in the sandwich”?

I feel it’s a valid question and I invite you to join me in my journey as I seek the answer to this question, share my thoughts, gain some knowledge and make a few friends.